back?
3 months into a new phase of life and some things certainly don't change.
Take it on me for being over-zealous. I might have aimed too high, and the fall I had was too painful. Before the start of everything, I wanted to achieve a lot of things. Supporting my own self, targeting good grades, passing my driving test and many others. I guess I certainly ain't on the right track now, for most of these objectives set back then. In retrospect, maybe I wasn't cut out to be so ambitious. Overestimation of myself probably rode over my head. Even now, I also don't think I am cut out for a lot of things.
I have been guilty of a lot of things. Guilty of breaking promises, guilty of not upholding my principles, guilty of changing. Is this an inevitable phase that all must go through? Regrets, I had a few, but none were too serious that I wished they weren't irreversible. But maybe my conscience is rocking now, because of them.
I must not let my loved ones down. That's probably the re-focus I can give myself now. I need to get back to shape. I must. I must not create anymore regrets.
I think I really need a getaway soon. Enough of all this nonsense. Holiday this coming December anyone?
On a lighter note, I am still deeply contented with what I already own. And I can see where I want to land myself in the near future. Trust me, my grip will be tighter this time.
I am praying. Praying for something.
I want to go Paris.
Take it on me for being over-zealous. I might have aimed too high, and the fall I had was too painful. Before the start of everything, I wanted to achieve a lot of things. Supporting my own self, targeting good grades, passing my driving test and many others. I guess I certainly ain't on the right track now, for most of these objectives set back then. In retrospect, maybe I wasn't cut out to be so ambitious. Overestimation of myself probably rode over my head. Even now, I also don't think I am cut out for a lot of things.
I have been guilty of a lot of things. Guilty of breaking promises, guilty of not upholding my principles, guilty of changing. Is this an inevitable phase that all must go through? Regrets, I had a few, but none were too serious that I wished they weren't irreversible. But maybe my conscience is rocking now, because of them.
I must not let my loved ones down. That's probably the re-focus I can give myself now. I need to get back to shape. I must. I must not create anymore regrets.
I think I really need a getaway soon. Enough of all this nonsense. Holiday this coming December anyone?
On a lighter note, I am still deeply contented with what I already own. And I can see where I want to land myself in the near future. Trust me, my grip will be tighter this time.
I am praying. Praying for something.
I want to go Paris.
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