4 a.m
You know its 4.40 a.m in the morning now, and I can't really get to sleep.
Just finished some mahjong and reading up some stuff when suddenly one struck me.
In my 20 years of life so far, I had 3 regrets. Regrets that kept bothering me even till now. Its about something that I could do but I failed to do so due to the lack of competency and confidence, resulting in a great change and negative consequences in another's lives.
I still feel kind of guilty, when I think about it. But somehow or rather, deep inside, I know that there wasn't much to be done back then. However, I just have this gut feeling that I could have done something, to make it better, to reduce that damage.
Going to force myself to sleep.
Oh, and Happy Birthday to both Tessa and John!
Haunting thoughts recurring back and forth.
Just finished some mahjong and reading up some stuff when suddenly one struck me.
In my 20 years of life so far, I had 3 regrets. Regrets that kept bothering me even till now. Its about something that I could do but I failed to do so due to the lack of competency and confidence, resulting in a great change and negative consequences in another's lives.
I still feel kind of guilty, when I think about it. But somehow or rather, deep inside, I know that there wasn't much to be done back then. However, I just have this gut feeling that I could have done something, to make it better, to reduce that damage.
Going to force myself to sleep.
Oh, and Happy Birthday to both Tessa and John!
Haunting thoughts recurring back and forth.
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