having a jie.
Just finished talking to Sharon..
Its kind of surprising when you can still remain in close terms with someone you only met for 3 months after 3 long years. I guess what happened in that place was never meant to be an accident.. Thanks, 姐。
I guess not many would have understand a character like me.. I would say for her and even my family.. In my complicated and hectic Montfort years, I learnt a fact that its a 'dog-eat-dog' society out there.. Many a times, I see people fighting over stupid stuffs like you stole my pokemon card.. If not, I see kids like us(back then), trying to act big in a group, shouting like in auctions, one feet on a bench and talking like they've been through the World. Even though these stuffs seem nonsensical and childish, the little us back then knew nothing much about the World outside.
In band, the power struggle seems disgusting obvious. Its shocking to see how human nature plays her part in our budding life. Everyone wants a share of power. However, everyone seems to have different methods of achieving it. The better ones will use orthodox ways to showcase their talents, make their stands and create an impact in the organisation, whereas those who couldn't really make the cut, will try to curry flavours and get into others' good books. I believe its human nature at work.. And what's important is that I get to witness all these happenings, and being involved in it as well.. I will never ever forget that place, where friends turned foes.
In class, there was this segregation between 姐妹党 and 兄弟党.. It may sound absurd to all of you, but its about this discrimination against a group of 'more feminine' guys in the school.. I guess this will only happen in a non-mixed school.. I wouldn't compare it to racism or anything major, but its still hurting to hear such things happening in school. Showers of insults and teasing were not uncommon back then. Sometimes, it makes one wonder why bullies want to be bullies. Maybe its the kind of control or status they have over their victims? Maybe, but I don't really want to know.. Even coming to a stage of bullying teachers till they cry and run out of the class, sometimes after thinking through it at this stage, I really felt ashamed of what has happened. No matter how disgusted you feel, and how you feel like standing up for another, the strength and courage are completely overwhelmed by the fear of rejection.. You know once you go against this force, you will be the next target. Loneliness is what all humans are afraid off. Thus one is held off with what moral courage he has. Sad, isn't it?
That was what happened in the past.
Now, try daring me.
Losing faith each day.
Its kind of surprising when you can still remain in close terms with someone you only met for 3 months after 3 long years. I guess what happened in that place was never meant to be an accident.. Thanks, 姐。
I guess not many would have understand a character like me.. I would say for her and even my family.. In my complicated and hectic Montfort years, I learnt a fact that its a 'dog-eat-dog' society out there.. Many a times, I see people fighting over stupid stuffs like you stole my pokemon card.. If not, I see kids like us(back then), trying to act big in a group, shouting like in auctions, one feet on a bench and talking like they've been through the World. Even though these stuffs seem nonsensical and childish, the little us back then knew nothing much about the World outside.
In band, the power struggle seems disgusting obvious. Its shocking to see how human nature plays her part in our budding life. Everyone wants a share of power. However, everyone seems to have different methods of achieving it. The better ones will use orthodox ways to showcase their talents, make their stands and create an impact in the organisation, whereas those who couldn't really make the cut, will try to curry flavours and get into others' good books. I believe its human nature at work.. And what's important is that I get to witness all these happenings, and being involved in it as well.. I will never ever forget that place, where friends turned foes.
In class, there was this segregation between 姐妹党 and 兄弟党.. It may sound absurd to all of you, but its about this discrimination against a group of 'more feminine' guys in the school.. I guess this will only happen in a non-mixed school.. I wouldn't compare it to racism or anything major, but its still hurting to hear such things happening in school. Showers of insults and teasing were not uncommon back then. Sometimes, it makes one wonder why bullies want to be bullies. Maybe its the kind of control or status they have over their victims? Maybe, but I don't really want to know.. Even coming to a stage of bullying teachers till they cry and run out of the class, sometimes after thinking through it at this stage, I really felt ashamed of what has happened. No matter how disgusted you feel, and how you feel like standing up for another, the strength and courage are completely overwhelmed by the fear of rejection.. You know once you go against this force, you will be the next target. Loneliness is what all humans are afraid off. Thus one is held off with what moral courage he has. Sad, isn't it?
That was what happened in the past.
Now, try daring me.
Losing faith each day.
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