wat's for?

I really wonder what is it for. I really can't figure it out anymore.

I just got pointed middle finger, scolded FUCK and TMD today. Really, what's the catch?

Yeah I am sorry, for whatever that has happened today that has made you so upset.

I am sorry for bringing you oily breakfast causing you to have a stomach upset, I am sorry that I didn't sit at the mahjong table and instead went to accompany you cause I was worried, I am sorry that I even agreed to turn up today because I felt obliged to, I am sorry for asking you to leave in fear of you getting overly bored, I am sorry for not noticing that extra ten bucks that you snuck into my wallet, I am so sorry that I am willing to spend every single cent in my wallet for you without keeping track. So what's the catch?

Sometimes I really wonder. What's the difference between now and then? I won't whine on the past, and I want to hold onto the present. You need to stop whining and voice out your concerns and wants, I am no psychic. I can't read your fucking mind.

I need to rant, I need to vent, I need to kill. What the fuck.

Maybe, just maybe. I am exhausted. Can you tell?