deep thoughts
I have been thinking of a lot of things recently.
In the midst of the recent 'hype', the reappearance of someone similar to Chin Mei brought about recollections from the past. 4 years ago, this was the period that changed my whole life. I can suddenly recall what I was like during that time and I pretty enjoyed my way of life.
After Army, some things changed. I have been thinking about what I have lost and gained in army. Sometimes out of boredom and just trying randomly to find some answers to satisfy myself. However, this time, it was different.
Talking about my positive takeaways from army, I've gained a lot of skills and experience, like how to manage like a leader and an instructor. I learnt how to work with superiors and colleagues from all levels of seniority. I met all kinds of people, ranging widely from rebellious to obedient and demure to wild. I learn how to endure and accept life as it is, push on, and finally get to taste the rewards of hard work. I learnt how to take orders and give them, be it right or wrong ones. There're like a whole list of things, but most importantly, I made some really good friends.
That being said, I took a turn to see what I've lost. I felt my character changed, together with the training and along with the people I meet. I felt I became less tactful and sensitive to others, often blunt when getting some point across people. I seemed to enjoy superiority more and more, and knowing that I am better than some others gets me on a ego boost. And sometimes, I can't control my temperament as well as before.
Somewhat, I don't like this change. Its like losing an identity. I am trying hard and have been trying hard to erase this negative effects.
Really trying hard.
Chok Chun called me over the weekend, and we chatted for a while. I remember he said something about Jia Ji; That he is always improving, looking for courses to attend and upgrade himself, and that this kind of attitude from Jia Ji is what he hoped he could have. Although I hate to be ranked with him, I still must applaud his determined spirit. Its been a while since I felt so motivated due to agitation. Haha. Aloysius will know why.
Simple reflections, nothing to be too concerned about.
In the midst of the recent 'hype', the reappearance of someone similar to Chin Mei brought about recollections from the past. 4 years ago, this was the period that changed my whole life. I can suddenly recall what I was like during that time and I pretty enjoyed my way of life.
After Army, some things changed. I have been thinking about what I have lost and gained in army. Sometimes out of boredom and just trying randomly to find some answers to satisfy myself. However, this time, it was different.
Talking about my positive takeaways from army, I've gained a lot of skills and experience, like how to manage like a leader and an instructor. I learnt how to work with superiors and colleagues from all levels of seniority. I met all kinds of people, ranging widely from rebellious to obedient and demure to wild. I learn how to endure and accept life as it is, push on, and finally get to taste the rewards of hard work. I learnt how to take orders and give them, be it right or wrong ones. There're like a whole list of things, but most importantly, I made some really good friends.
That being said, I took a turn to see what I've lost. I felt my character changed, together with the training and along with the people I meet. I felt I became less tactful and sensitive to others, often blunt when getting some point across people. I seemed to enjoy superiority more and more, and knowing that I am better than some others gets me on a ego boost. And sometimes, I can't control my temperament as well as before.
Somewhat, I don't like this change. Its like losing an identity. I am trying hard and have been trying hard to erase this negative effects.
Really trying hard.
Chok Chun called me over the weekend, and we chatted for a while. I remember he said something about Jia Ji; That he is always improving, looking for courses to attend and upgrade himself, and that this kind of attitude from Jia Ji is what he hoped he could have. Although I hate to be ranked with him, I still must applaud his determined spirit. Its been a while since I felt so motivated due to agitation. Haha. Aloysius will know why.
Simple reflections, nothing to be too concerned about.
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