Finalli got to rest.
Tough weeks to come by.
Sumthings, I juz cant do it the way i want it to.
I m tired. Realli realli tired.
I need to scream.
Juz realised that the generation gap between my parent n mi is gettin bigger. Harder to communicate wif them. Sumtimes, just feelin so lonely. My family is gettin worse and worse each day. When one day I cannot take it, I may just take a chopper out, and make chicken rice. ....... Under lots of pressure from my family. I m the eldest son. Ya, and seems that all the responsibility of lookin after the home will depend on mi soon... Wah.. I m simply not ready. Too much, tremendous pressure.
Quek was tokin to mi tat day.. tokin about friends. Tat we will lose some n gain some. Not possible to haf them all. Then i was thinkin.. Was this wat happened to LCJ and low? I dunno. Partly was my fault ba... But, I realli wanted to get back to them. I wan them back... But too bad.. Most things like tis are irreversible.. And i guessed they got used to it alreadi. So whatever. I guess they are happy wif their lives now..
Maybe i should juz stop dreamin. I always think greater than watever I m. N i always think i can do a lot of things.. But in actual fact. I juz cant. Juz take the MSSB BM post for eg, I used to think i can be that post, but come to think of it, I haf nothing.. No qualities, nothing. Wishful thinkin on my part.. Kept thinkin i can dribble well, but i cant. It was all a dream. Everything is.
I m startin to wake up. The clouds are dispersing, the sky is startin to clear. Maybe i will get over this soon. Maybe.
I need a shoulder.
I wun cry.
I wun.
Tough weeks to come by.
Sumthings, I juz cant do it the way i want it to.
I m tired. Realli realli tired.
I need to scream.
Juz realised that the generation gap between my parent n mi is gettin bigger. Harder to communicate wif them. Sumtimes, just feelin so lonely. My family is gettin worse and worse each day. When one day I cannot take it, I may just take a chopper out, and make chicken rice. ....... Under lots of pressure from my family. I m the eldest son. Ya, and seems that all the responsibility of lookin after the home will depend on mi soon... Wah.. I m simply not ready. Too much, tremendous pressure.
Quek was tokin to mi tat day.. tokin about friends. Tat we will lose some n gain some. Not possible to haf them all. Then i was thinkin.. Was this wat happened to LCJ and low? I dunno. Partly was my fault ba... But, I realli wanted to get back to them. I wan them back... But too bad.. Most things like tis are irreversible.. And i guessed they got used to it alreadi. So whatever. I guess they are happy wif their lives now..
Maybe i should juz stop dreamin. I always think greater than watever I m. N i always think i can do a lot of things.. But in actual fact. I juz cant. Juz take the MSSB BM post for eg, I used to think i can be that post, but come to think of it, I haf nothing.. No qualities, nothing. Wishful thinkin on my part.. Kept thinkin i can dribble well, but i cant. It was all a dream. Everything is.
I m startin to wake up. The clouds are dispersing, the sky is startin to clear. Maybe i will get over this soon. Maybe.
I need a shoulder.
I wun cry.
I wun.
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