Cant take it....

Haiz... Todae is a beli disastrous dae.... Even though sumthing good happened... Dumb... Got into Honours roll for gettin good results... Some board where the names of topscorers are placed... But in the end juz got suan... Although they were like jokin, i feel beli beli upset... Wat kind of response is tat....? Not even a word of congrats..... Onli from my few sis... Wat a tupid thing... I rather not want tis kind of "fame"... I jus wanna live an ordinary life.... why...? Feelin so depressed... Sianz... Had to rush through PW... Coz have to hand up file on Fridae... But juz cant seem to finish... Shit.. Haf to go rush through after tis... Den still got so many work to do.... Realli feel like dying... ARGH!!!! Cant breathe... Sianz... Den I juz found out i kept a lot of things from min... Didnt mean it... But i did... I didnt wan her to worry bout mi... Not tat i wan the others to worry bout mi lahz... But... Haiz.... Decided to tell her later... Maybe Tessa n Chong Ying were right... I m holdin too much responsibilities liaoz... Haiz... Not tat i wan to.... But i cant realli seem to hold on to all... Tml i goin out wif my sis, to see her ex perform at Bugis... Her ex is my bro... Den she feel paisei... Den i go wif her... Its more complicated than u think... I need to go... So probably cant go to band tml... Another sorrie to Shimin n AKG... If tat tupid 3 ask... I m gonna shoot back... I cannot tolerate anymore... Realli, causin the downfall of NY band... ARGH!!!!! Haiz... I realli felt like crying todae... But i didnt, n i noe i cant... I almost died, but luckily i didnt... Haiz... Realli on the brink of breakin down... Wat on earth has tis world turn to......? I m feelin fatigue, both mentally n physically... Haiz... Need to rest, but no time.... Juz need to flush everything out of myself here.... Feelin better.... I guess... I haf faced tis before... So i guess i will get pass it again... Need to tide over tis period of time... I dun wanna die here... Sianz... *struggling* phewz... Take carez evryone... N thankz for 'listenin'..